Tomorrow morning, I’ll be headed off on retreat. Last year’s retreat was a real milestone in my practice. Since then I’ve started this blog, developed a daily practice that really was a daily practice, went weekly to weekly sitting groups and read some wonderful books (The Island (Ajahn Pasano), Four Noble Truths (Ajahn Sumedho), Right Mindfulness (Thanisaro Bhikkhu) and I’m in the middle of the Wings to Awakening (Thanisaro Bhikkhu). I’ve been experiencing my moments more fully and my sitting practice has deepened during this time. If I am being honest, I’d also have to admit that I’ve been preparing for this retreat. I can’t wait to see if some of the seeds I’ve planted will open up and flower.
I’m conscious of the pitfall of expectations. I’m also aware how wildly ironic it is to live thinking of the future in the form of a mindfulness retreat while overlooking one’s present moment experience. For this reason, I’ve developed a simple “redirect”: whenever I notice myself thinking of the desert -> come back to the present moment’s seeing, hearing, & feeling. This routine has been triggered a lot this week.
To anyone reading this: be well, be happy and be sensitive to waves of metta coming from the southern California desert!